I am trying to wrap my head around what to do next…it’s a struggle to find the clarity I need to convey…the verbal sparring answers it’s own questions and we talk through it, still unsatisfied and it seems unheard? In this instance I feel like I need to turn the lights down…settle into the front row and watch the performance…’cause I am not sure what else needs to be said and I refuse to say it all again. I am frustrated because we are saying the same things…agreeing on the problems and solutions…we have each others attention, but only in so much that we only hear our own sentiments reflected back. Everyone understands that the exchange is becoming increasingly flawed…a function of time and brief awkward silences that are rushed to be filled…because the quiet magnifies the disconnect and accelerates our mutual anxiety. I emerge with the understanding that I was ill prepared and should have thought better…distracted by my own point of view and rectitude…and through this struggle realize I still have much work to do.
“If there is no struggle, there is no progress.” -Frederick Douglass
About Lawrence Lewis
I do a number of things professionally...but most of all and the true purpose of what I do through "my work" is to provide for my family, be a good husband and great father, and try to make a difference as a world citizen...I guess it's not much more complicated than that 🙂