Awe man, I am starting to feel the pressure of this thing I created…on the one hand success and achievement on many counts even this far in advance of my self imposed deadline…Project 75 (at least this iteration) concludes at the strike of midnight December 31, 2013. On the other hand, complete and utter failure to achieve my stated objective with Siobhán…she lays in limbo as if in some alternate reality – a parallel universe in which I have hit the pause button – with all her problems and the fate of that worlds souls sitting in the balance…and not a day goes by that this unfinished responsibility troubles me – haunts me. It’s weight often overwhelming me to paralysis at this very keyboard even though her story plays out in my mind with vivid recurrence…so I wrestle with this conflict and have no idea how to resolve it, other than to trust that time will undue and pull apart the knots that bind me up inside…and eventually release me to tell this story – setting us both finally free of its bonds.
“People fall so in love with their pain, they can’t leave it behind. The same as the stories they tell. We trap ourselves.” ― Chuck Palahniuk
About Lawrence Lewis
I do a number of things professionally...but most of all and the true purpose of what I do through "my work" is to provide for my family, be a good husband and great father, and try to make a difference as a world citizen...I guess it's not much more complicated than that 🙂